LARK

03.05.1997 - 17.08.2008 R.I.P.
Today my "Little Skelm" passed away!
Oh Lord how do I go forth? She was the greatest companion I have ever had. Gave me everything of herself without losing her identity.... my heart is in a million pieces - the sadness is so intense - I could crawl into a hole and hopefully just disintegrate into the ether.
The pain is so intense. Tomorrow here on my own will be the worst - she has been my shadow, especially since losing her sight. Smelling me out where ever I might have been - and the little stump wagging away - talking to me asking for her biscuits or any little treat she could manage in her condition.(not that she got it most of the time). Lord and talk she could - telling me all about it! :)
You were the light on the dark side of me.......I lit up inside when you were in my sight. Fly my little one, into the light, there they all wait for you to guide you and give you a new life - I just pray we can be together again - one day!!!!!!!
16.08.2008
The Vet does not hold much hope Lark's system is generating acids - she is bring up blood - she will try and treat her up to lunch time and then we will re-evaluate. Oh Lord please look after her = my heart is breaking - I love my little one so very, very much but cannot stand the suffering. :(

16.08.2008
From about 6pm Lark started to get sick. She has, I think, gone into diabetic shock. She is shivering, has grown so week that she can barely stand - cannot give insulin as I might overdose her. She must have had a good bucket of water already - but within an hour it all comes out. I am so afraid of the damage that is happening to her organs. Damn the Vet is only opening at 8:00 am (now just after 7am) Hang in there my baby, I cannot lose you now!

15.8.2008
As per status : Damn Damn Damn - her blood sugar up from 5.4 to 16.4 in one month!!!! Cannot give more food, and she is absolutely starving!!!! Joe suggests big bones for her to chew on. We had noticed that she has started to nip us this week, and we thought that it was because she was frustrated with not always finding her way around (we were trying to help of course). Now this explains all. Oh well - .03ml per day for a week - then test again.
02.07.2008
Well ..... what can I say ..... am I being prepared for the inevitable? Her sugar stayed at 4.6 last week so the dosage of insulin has been dropped to 2ml twice a day now. But her blindness is so sad to watch .... how she carefully places foot in front of foot, walks into walls and doors, pot plants etc. Now with furniture having to be moved around for Saturday is going to be so disconcerting for her!!!!! To top it all ..... she managed to overturn the outside bin on the past weekend while we were out, and demolish scraps that were discarded and has developed a hernia!!! I noticed she was letting off whoppers and put it down to the fact that she had eaten from the bin, but on carrying her to bed last night - there it was a huge bulge on her tummy. Like a little balloon - well another spanner in the works - as Joe is reluctant to giver her anesthetic, due to her age, what are we going to do now????
24.06.2008
Monday - who got the biggest fright? Lark or me?
It was such a wake-up call.......took her bed out into the sun and to air, and the next minute, slpoooooosh, there was this little black thing paddling like crazy in the icy water!!!!
Screeched her name and she followed the sound (thank the Lord she can still hear) then yanked her out at the step. A little drowned rat she was. She just stood = draped in one of her blankets, unseeing eyes the size of saucers. All I needed now was for her to go into hypoglycemic shock!!
I dried her as best I could (she hates hair dryers) and had her in the sun on the chez and gave her a biscuit to bring the sugar count up ............... at least she is clean and now barred from the front garden.........
20.06.2008
Friday - visited Joe the Vet again. Lark's sugar down to 4.6, now it getting too low!!!! Could go hypoglycemic??
Apparently the diabetic food is the genius in the matter, so now decrease dosage again. Sometimes I feel so happy with the raport we have built up between each other and other days so very sad when I watch as she feels and smells her way around, or misjudges a step or chair and clunks into the ground or the object!!! But I thank the Lord that I still have her. At least Joe says the infection in the sinuses, even though will never heal is not life threatening.:-)
13.06.2008
Took Lark to the vet again today - sugar was initially 11.8, next week 13 and this week (13th) down to 5.4. My heart is glad but we are still not there have to reduce dosage again to see if we can keep sugar down at 8ml. Unfortunately she has lost 90% of her sight too. I pray it works!!!
09.06.2008
Oh how it pains me to see my "little skelm" deteriorate in front of my eyes so. From being so alive and vibrant to being so near to deaths door is ripping my heart from me!! You have given me your all in your short life, always forgiving, always loving, talking to me with those little grunts and looking into my eyes with such tender love showing in your face. Now you are barely able to make out where I am never mind look at me. Oh sweet, sweet child how I pray for you to stabilize that we can share more precious time together. My heart is breaking!! I love you so dearly and deeply I cannot bare the thought of losing you yet. Hang in there my "little skelm". :(